Do you ever have those days where life just doesn't seem to make sense? My Grandma passed away a few months ago. Her passing has been so difficult. I know in my heart and mind she is in a better place, and freed from the imprisonment of her body. However, I can't help but feel deep sadness with out her here. She and I have been best friends my whole life.....there has not been a week of my life where I haven't seen her, spoken with her or wrote to her. Things just feel so different with out her. Last night, I had a bazaar, yet strangely realistic dream about my Grandma. I woke up this morning in hysterical tears. It's strange how real dreams can seem, all day I have felt a little weird and I keep looking at all the people rushing around me and today, life just doesn't make any sense to me. Does it ever amaze you how much life can change from one day to the next? It makes me think, "am I doing all that I should be doing in life?" " I'm I rushing through life, busy with the unimportant ?"
ps. sorry, I know this has depressing undertones.....I just wonder if any of you ever feel the same? Death is hard for me, what helps you understand death?
7 comments:
I feel you - my mom died on 4/14/07 and it doesn't get any easier. I still miss her like I missed her on 4/15/07. I was adopted though so I Missed out on her but I found her and we talked all the time. Sending hugs your way!
I think that's completely understandable and I'm so sorry for your loss.
I'm not very good at dealing with death, so I don't have any pointers for you, but I am sending you a big hug!
I have a really bad time with death too. It seems to take me years to get passed a loved ones death and I will still break down for days at a time. Just being able to rely on the Lord helps. Love you woman!
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I'm visiting from UBP. It is tough. My grandmother (my biggest fan) died the day I found out I was pregnant. These are now forever locked together. I wish I had some advice for you. Try to enjoy the bittersweet memories that you have.
~Amber @ The Mom Road
My grandpa died about 3 1/2 years ago and I understand how you feel! Hugs!
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I am stopping by with the UBP. I love the title of your blog. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Grandmother. I'm she is smiling down from heaven at the growing "bump" in your tummy. Many blessings to you as you begin to grow your family.
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